Each day I woke up with a purpose and looked at my day through the lens of positivity. I created a routine and made sure to start off my day with yoga and writing. Then I spent time in the afternoon reading new books, taking our family dog on walks, and completing an energizing workout before dinner. I would end my day relaxing with a new show or movie and a, “Good night, good morning” video call to my husband. Although I still had a continual pit in my stomach and could break down at any moment, I did my best to set myself up for success.
By giving myself these small actions of love I was reminded of my worth. I could find happiness now. Once I embraced this mentality I immediately saw the positive lessons in my situation. Although I was constantly filled with uncertainty, anger, and fear, it taught me to find my inner strength. I knew I never wanted to feel so powerless and hopeless again. Because although I couldn’t control my situation, I could control how I reacted to it. I allowed the negative emotions in, but I knew I couldn’t let the darkness win.
What started as the worst time in my life suddenly became a time for reconnection. I was reunited with myself and the power I had within to choose how I experienced life.